Mommy, it's been almost 4 months since I last heard your voice, and about 7 since I last saw you. Just when it seems i'm learning to cope it hits me again. You mean more to me than words can express. You were my best friend, my sister, not just my mother. You sacrificed so much for me. I loved you for it. i tried to tell you everyday how much i loved you. Every choice I made in my life, I made with you in mind. When I was young there were times I would choose to stay home with you than hang out with my friends. Maybe somewhere deep inside i knew our time together would not be long. i love you mommy. I will never understand why you were taken away from me. You were the only one who knew me and loved me just the way i was. you were the only one. Without you, I feel so alone. Without you I am just coping. Without you i live everyday knowing that the one who loved me most is gone. As a young mother, i have heard many things about how to raise my child. But you gave the best advice through your life. You were the best mother this world has ever known and I promise to raise Eden the way you raised me. I promise that we will live each day to the fullest. We will dance every time we get a chance, we'll sing along to the radio. And some nights we'll just curl up in front of the TV and eat KFC, just cuz we can. I love you always